Sorry to put a negative spin on life here but i just gotta let rip at this keyboard.. and it might help you understand chops a bit better just in case you see a pink jersy flipping out a lil at the sydney 12hr..
The training has been slack lately as ive had no lights,,, i could prob even go weeks back ill fast forward everything to this week.. not enough time and money stresses me out and ill just pick on the time issue..
its nearyly 2pm and i wana get to yellowmundee so i can get a lap in and set my tent up but yet im here venting out onto my blog and into the world.. The week has flown by and with coming down with what ever bug i have has been a bitch with trying to teach spin classes with no voice sucks arse.. work has strung out with problem after problem slowing production down and not getting anything done means no dollors..
took my epic into the shop yesterday in an attempt to make it lighter by changing the tyres and i cant get the small b8 to seal properly on my rear wheel and adding over the reccomended air pressure was goin well until i got to 80psi and blew the walls of my garage a lil wider so now everything is covered in stans and just soaking up more of my time...
i just have no idea how im gona get thru this 12hr race i have not eaten properly in the last week or trained or stretched like any other week i even had a coffee everyday which i never do..wats this bug gone do to me while riding who knows.. ive been training hard for ages to be ready for this.. being part of the rockytrail show has put extra pressure on me to perform on the day.. mainly i just wana beat shane taylor so ppl think im worthy of the ticket to the croc trophy..im driving down alone today in my car which i dont have faith in that it will make the distant and drive back after the race and be at ourimbah to race club on sunday morning... will i even be alive... i just dont know...
i dont even have a plan written down for my pit crew 2moro let alone the food i need to run my body... just so un organaised im just stuck doing all myself with no time to do it....
just get me to the other side of this wknd....
all of this has prob made no sense i just thought it mite help me from falling off the rails..
lets just hope wen i get pedalling 2moro it all disappears..
chops.
Hang in there big guy, when the shit comes down, tiny problems seem massive, I was exactly like you a few days before solo worlds, just about at nervous breakdown / pysocotic break level.
ReplyDeleteIt will all come together tomorrow man, you know how to ride and how to eat, just takes heaps of food with you, and let your crew do what they do, it'll come together!
cheers jase... yea i so should of re-read your blog... i was at the same point.. so happy to escape by riding my bike..
ReplyDelete3rd place :) report up soon
well done man, pulling 3rd after a week like that is awesome. here's to clean runs for us both for the next ones :)
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